just to you, to know :(

Today is not my day, I feel like losing everything part of my life . I feel like nothing, useless, lonely and poor. I am sad too much. why is it that when my life is so perfect, someone or something comes in to destroy it, and everything is gone ? WHY EVERYTHING IS GONE ??????
I am losing my self, someone special, and all about miracle God given .
how weak I am.. what can I do now ?
It wrong when I  really deep love him ? why he's do like that to me.
God hug me, keep me strong. let all these go away.
I just wanna be happy with right person who always save, care with me, and understand me.
I am loving him soo much, but I am losing him now :(